I am half of a lost love
And I refuse to believe
I can change my wife’s relationship with food
I realise this may come as a shock but
“Happiness comes from within”
Is a lie, and
“being thinner will make you happy”
So in 30 years I will tell my children
They are not the most important thing in Emma’s life.
Her eating disorders will know that
Emma has her priorities straight because
E.D.
Is more important than
Family
So experts tell me
10 years from now I will be celebrating the 5th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in a relationship of my own making
In my future
Self destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
I care about this relationship
It will be evident that
My attitude is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope for us
We can’t hope to beat this eating disorder together
I would be lying to you if I said that
This marriage has a great future
That reality can replace body dismorphier
That our lives could be filled with joy
That our children will be happy and healthy
Emma, I am convinced of this because I know you
Self-loathing and selfishness are ingrained in you
Anorexia will grow stronger in you every day and
I refuse to believe under any circumstance that
You will turn things around in the coming years
You have only this destiny
Whether you like it or not
And
All of this will come true
Unless you choose to reverse it.
(NOW READ BACKWARDS)