BY LAUREN SCOTT
It’s absolutely draining what I am doing to myself.
The hours of pain, Of conflict. Of self loathing
Why can’t I win the war.
I have fought so many battles after all.
Who does this affect? It’s not just me,
The people I love. My friends. My family.
The lies I force myself to tell.
To hide the truth and pretend all is well.
Face to face, I hide it.
Behind my humour and my wit.
I knew I’d be scared about coming back.
Falling in to the same old trap.
And, here I am back where I was.
Feeling just as alone and, just as lost.